i look at these blogs i've posted, and i want to delete or edit pretty much every last one. however, i think that would be on the side of cheating. i've kept a journal for years, and i looked back at it today and laughed. i missed some things, but i was so misguided, and life was so trivial.
life is still trivial. i've come to realize that Satan has perversed God's gift of giving us purpose with trivial distractions in life. God gives each of us the inner drive to work toward a purpose in Him, and Satan does all he can to distract us with fleeting things that don't matter. i wrote in the last blog how my life was so trivial and i was finally coming into my own--i was fooling myself then. yeah, i had been shallow, but on the journey back to myself, i passed myself and kept going into the deep end, and that's where i was in the time i wrote the last blog.
what a scary time. yet, what a relief to be so loved by God that he brought me out of another murky time. see, another thing Satan steals from me is having the full freedom to love like i should...loving God and loving others. it sounds pretty easy, but as i referred to in earlier blogs, loving someone is far more than just being kind. love is unconventional and untraditional. why can't you define it? because it's as awesome and enigmatic as the One of created it.
i guess i love reading things past to see how much i've grown and changed. i would edit and delete all the silliness, the embarrassment--but then what would be the fun in that?
i'm growing. and i'm doing my best to constantly evaluate the fear and the triviality in my life. it will always be there. always. as long as i am seeking God, Satan will toss these perverse distractions and joy-stealers at me. it would be so much easier if i could remember just as clearly when i am down as i remember when i am up, that the only reason i am feeling so beaten down and awful is because i am fighting a battle on the right and winning team.
i'm burying that one in the time capsule in the backyard.
- erin whatley
- two-two-niine, Georgia, United States
- i never thought it would be hard to fit a nut into a nutshell, but here's a go at what i'm about. foremost, i know, love and follow the Lord. i'm a wild card. i enjoy being alone as much as i enjoy other people. i eat up anything art-related. i'm an only child. i have a BBA in Marketing & an AA in Fine Arts. i'm the marketing and PR gal for Stewbos group, a job i truly love. i do this part-time, and the rest of the time i'm a stay at home wife/mama to Justin and Vayda. i itch to travel and i delight at learning new things. you'll find i'm neurotic, intellectual, honest and somewhat naive. i'm open and compassionate, yet paradoxically hard on myself. my biggest fear is succumbing to cynicism, and my greatest joy is experiencing growth. my idol is willy wonka, because i never want to grow up. i sing and dance my way through the day. I believe the best ones are full of giggles. i think blogging is rather self-indulgent. writing about my thoughts feels selfish, yet i enjoy the exploration it brings. thanks for stopping by.
