wow, the past week and a half has been a total blur. i'm back at work today. i've been back from camp for four days, and i still feel exhausted. i don't know what's wrong with me. i was only there four full days, so shouldn't i feel recovered? i'm feeling completely out of touch with reality these days. not to say that i'm completely dellusional, but my life has very dramatically changed in the past few months. and it continues to change everyday. i'm not sure if what i'm craving right now is realism or familiarity, but i nearly invited you to lunch today just so i might feel a little more grounded again.

camp was great. david platt is unexplainably intelligent. if i could have a little david platt in my head at all times making things so eloquently clear, i feel like i'd be a much better version of myself. i really enjoyed charlie hall, too. i wish i had gotten to bond with the kids more. i'm serious when i say it felt like one crazy long day. it was over in an instant, and i wondered where the week had gone. it felt so different compared to camps i had been to in the past. i also began sponsoring a child through compassion international. his name is rewat, he's four and he's from thailand. it's such an incredible responsibility, which is why i've avoided doing it for so long. but i feel like if i'm really going to be making a difference in the world, i need to begin with my immediate finances.

i've got a lot working inside of me right now. God's doing something, but i don't know what it is.